Sitiawanian Psycho

I just watched American Psycho. Hmmmm..
It wasn't as disgusting as it could have been. You know, all those distasteful movies about gore and blood and nudity. Well, there was all three, but hey, it's Christian Bale, who can resist not looking at his perfectly formed ass.

No wait, that sounded gay. Never mind. His acting was superb. Obviously, insane people are all expected to act like Heath Ledger's Joker. But Bale's Patrick Bateman was... different to say the least. And some of us like telling ourselves, "he kinda reminds me of me" every time we see something we'd like to be more like. Especially when it's a trait of some fictitious character from a movie.

I couldn't help but notice how his description of music was.. well just like mine. But other than that, I assure you, we're almost totally opposite. Patrick Bateman is a narcissist. He's in love with his own image and ego. It's scary. He puts on this outer facade. Hell, some of us do sometimes, just to get along with people.

But Bateman does it. With everyone. It scares me. Maybe we all have outer facades, but we lie to everyone about who we really are. So much so that we can no longer tell the difference between the real and the image. This image is of coarse, a presentation. Something we want people to see.

Hell, it scares me. Because sometimes I seem like I'm sad or angry online or on the phone but I'm smiling and thinking about what's for lunch. And the fact that I've noticed the difference between my facade and real self, well, that just makes me feel like Bateman.

I went to the kitchen for a drink. I saw a pair of scissors. You cannot imagine how scary it is to watch American Psycho. Especially when you're in a town in the middle of nowhere. Lol. Didn't cross my mind. Jeez, I'm no psycho. Seriously. I'm not. I just don't like associating empathy with the soul. I think that if I've seen these traits in animals, just like I've seen animals eat, then I can infer that just like how we eat differently, we feel differently.

But that's just my own way of thinking. I wouldn't want everyone thinking that way. Then my idea of life would slowly become more than an idea. It would become a way of life. And from that, into something more.

Just like the beginnings of any great idea. Any great religion can trace its beginnings to something small. Some idea.

And for Gabs sakes, I don't mean to say I've got an idea worth spreading. I'm just saying, I'm not a psycho and I need to justify the way I think by explaining a perfectly human idea.

Hah.... 8 hours to my driving test. My leg feels sore as hell. Bryan Yong, I know your test's round the same time as mine, and by the time you read this we'll both be done, but good luck.

Time for sleep.