Oh well. emo time again.
wee! don't we all like to see this part. (no actually we dont you fucktard, we just wanna see the good stuff)
Whatever, my blog, and you've already added yourself to my blog counter by visiting, so you might as well get your minutes worth. Or you can skip to some other, better post.
I remember, back about a month and a half a go. I had to leave Jb for Kl, then for Sitiawan. Back then... damn. I would give anything to go back a month and a half. I'd give a kidney. I'd give a section of my liver. I'd give blood. I'd give facial hair. I'd give anything. Cept my phone.
But that's not me! I'm not the guy who sits and cries, with hands to the sky crying
'Why, oh Why!' Nope. I'm the guy who can't blame anyone but himself.
And right now I just realised that I've been listening to the same 2 songs repeat over and over.
*changes song*
ok.
I blame myself for
A) Not listening to Dream Theaters advice.
"Seize the Day"
I heard him say
Life will not always be this way
From my favourite song by them too.
2)Not being the smart one. Because I was so used to having someone else point the way. But when that someone stopped pointing, I just... got lost.. again!
3)Ruining absolutely perfect sentences with exclamation marks!
4)wasting 2 slots in my 'self-blame list'
5)making myself weak. like this.
6)being stupid. Because most of the time, I look back and think to myself, 'hey, I'm smarter than I used to be'. Then I'd end up laughing at my stupid past self and wondered if I timewarped my past self to my future self, would my past self bow down to the obviously smarter future self. I can't do that anymore. Now, I feel like I've killed nearly everything smart in me. But it's not too late to save my mind.
7)wasting 200 dollars in kl on a graphic novel(which i could have downloaded), a lamp for my brother(who found a nicer looking one in his cupboard), and a whole lotta Carls' Jr fries. Because 200 dollars could have bought me a Tumbler the size of a snare drum at Berjaya Times Square. And by dollars, I mean ringgit, but it just sounds fancier.
8)Not making sure my blog looked and functioned well, because obviously I never expected more than 3 hits a day. So thanks for hitting my blog, and sorry it looks like something you at a sale at the 1 dollar store. And by dollar I mean Rupiah, but it just sounds fancier.
And I'm sure I could go on writing a blame me list.
But that's just NOT how I do things.
I just miss good times. Like everyone misses good times.
And I respect the minds control over the body, but I should have been in control of my mind the whole fucking time, but there I was letting things just flow.
Subhash, you are one fucking noob.
Goodnight, my bus leaves at 9-something a.m. And it's 2.30 am right now. I'm only half packed. SHITE I HAVENT LOADED MY COMICS ONTO MY EXTERNAL HARDISK YET OH CRAP GOTTA GO!
see you guys on the other side.
I sure hope the sitiawan laptop/broadband are still working otherwise, it's goodbye forever.
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