I have fallen prey to failure!

Oh yeah. Not in trials.
Trials, so far is 100% pass for me.
Some other guys, not so lucky.
Then again, people in the 1st class got like straight A's.

OLD habits reappear,
Fighting the Fear of Fear.

I just cannot believe that's happening to me again.
I hope it does.

You see, when my PC died from July-late August,
I went through, surprisingly enough, the 2nd best phase of my life.
Everything went well.
1) I lost 10 kilograms, more than I ever lost in my entire life
2) I quit eating chocolates/ice cream for nearly a month
3) I was exercising daily
4) I was reading really good books
5) My grades got a little better
6) I made new friends and
7) Got my brain organized from it's dark age of emoness and confusion

The best time I had in my life, was also when my PC broke down from a faulty mother board back in '07. I must have blogged about my awesome holiday at least once before. But let me go into detail (once again)

My whole life has been revolved around the PC.
Even before the internet craze that hit me in '05,
I had been playing and mastering all sorts of games throughout my life.
Then, before my end of the year exams, my pc died.
I thought it would be fixed up by the time the holidays had begun.
To my dismay, it was only done in Jan '08.
But those 2 months opened my mind.

I jammed nearly 10 times a month.

Wrote countless song ideas and riffs

Traveled to Penang with 2 cousins, and all the way back alone(ya la, im a noob)

Lived with my brother in KL for a week.

Visited a really old friend

Moved around KL for the first time without family.

Made new buddies.

So you see, this God damned machine that keeps calling to me
is actually distracting me from what I really need.

And what I really need is for this machine to die.

Ever since I stopped playing COD4, life's improved(though not by much yet)

My hypothesis is proven because before trials, I hadn't studied AT ALL.

A week(or 2) before trials, I completely stopped using the PC.

And spent that entire time studying.

Not that I got amazing results.

But, I think I did well enough for my standards.

Frak add maths though, that subject required focus I can't provide.

I'm writing this post in line by line for instead of paragraphs.

Because Kua doesn't like paragraphs.

I make a ton of mistakes when i write this way.

My new goal is to kill my PC by the end of this week.