In yer face

Funny how some incidents stick to your mind.

Funny is a bad word to use here.

It's more like depressing. Or annoying.

A long time ago, something happened to my internet and that internet problem became a real problem and made my Friday the worse day of my life.

No joke, even though I was hanging out with a friend of mine, I just was so dead inside. The internet can really ruin things.

And ever since then, I always begin to panic everytime the internet shows signs of not working.

I NEED the internet to work. Otherwise I start sweating bullets and I think about that bad day.

Then the internet works and I end up going online and realizing NOTHING CHANGED. IT'S EXACTLY HOW IT WAS the last time I saw it. No blogs have been updated. All three of my inboxes are still occupied by automated messages asking me to join facebook(NEVER!) and no one is online.

Then I just stare at the screen and wonder what the sweating was for. Shrug. Then go on youtube and find out that none of my subsciptions have posted new videos.

Then I go on gamespot and probably find out that some other gaming giant has gone bankrupt(new news, 3D Realms is dead. That means no more Duke Nukem games)

Then I go on wikipedia and search for something random.

Depressing, eh?

NO!

Not depressing.

It makes me angry! Angry!

Why am I angry? It's not you Kua.

And it's not anyone else either.

It's MUFY!

MUFY is making me angry.

yes.

I talked to my mum about Sunway JB.

And I was like - the subjects suck

And she was like - you've got no choice

And I was like - I'm gonna sit through 18 months of subjects I dont care for?

And she was like - you've got no choice

And I was like - whine whine whine whine whine

And she was like - no choice no choice no choice

And two days later

I was still angry

And she asked my brother to make me unangry

And my brother was like - dude, as long as it aint a diploma, there's always a choice

and i was like - oh just go see the subjects they offer in sunway jb

And he was like - it doesnt matter what you take in your friggin college years

and i was like - but im going to spend 18 months doing bullshit

and he was like - do MUFY, its only like 10 months long and you it's way easier

and i was like - stupid mufy


and right now. I'm angry. grr...

Looks like I'm going to take the easy way out.

A good friend once told me, all roads lead to the ocean.

Me, being the pessimist that I am, embrace that saying in the worst way.

All roads lead to you dying. So why bother trying hard? once you die, your ego dies with you. There won't be a glory or shame to suffer when the end comes. It'll be the ocean. Dead. Unfeeling.



Plus.

The fact that Asians have it bad makes it so much easier to not try at all.

My grandma says we act to white. My dad too. They both stress on cultural identity. It's confusing, because my dad wrote a paper on culture being a tool of survival for people BEFORE globilization. So why would it matter that we act white? If white is what sells, then white I shall buy.

And I won't kid myself either. Look at your. Everyone who reads this is Asian. But all of you watch TV, go to malls, read the paper, use the fan/air con, travel with motor vehicles, live in brick houses. Where's the Asian in that, hmm?

I don't see a drop of Asian left to salvage. And if it were up to me, I'd sink the culture ship myself. But it's not up to me.


So you see how lucky the world is that I'm going to take the easy wat out. How lucky the world is that I'm going to conform! Wee!