More than ever, I need another kind of madness. Otherwise I'm going to end up crying over spilt milk. Mueh mueh mueh.
Bryan Yong came by and when the awesome but predictably disappointing lightning storm came, he found out what cowards my dogs were. Yesterday, Hector pushed all the pups out of the kennel and slept in there when there was lightning and booming thunder. Today however, they got even more cowardly. And I say 'they' because both of them abandoned their 5, much braver, children. They went round to the side door and creeped into my maids room...
I played ping pong with him just now and found out my knee is still out of alignment after the awesome-nasty bike crash last month.
Speaking of that bike crash, I have a 10 second long hi res video of it on my video cam(which was the cause of the crash, three cheers for brainlessness) that I'm too lazy to upload because:
1) the video ends just as I begin toppling over the bike, so there's no squishy bits
2) I'm lazy to connect my firewire cable. And too lazy to find it
My dengue-like fever went down in the morning. It's starting to come back again. Yay, I guess.
I think this is my last week of foolishness. After this Sunday, I'm going to have to get back to the wholesomeness of life. But how? I don't know. Sitting around and finding excuses not too is just stupid. And everyday I spend doing this I wonder why they haven't legalized murder. And that's not good for business. Even if that means you get to keep the wallets after you stab them.
Ok. Gory detail aside.
okay, time for the boring section of the post involving the xbox, I'll warn you when it's over using ****
I won't lie to you, the Xbox 360 IS an awesome gaming machine. But that's all it is. Don't come over and play it and expect God himself to jump out of the screen and shake your hand. It doesn't jam up(unless the disk is dirty), it plays nearly every game on considerably good graphics, and split screen only works if you're willing to comprimise the comforts of a full screen for something more social. It's not perfect. You can have the flexibility of a PC, the high-techness of a Playstation 3, the balanced act of an Xbox 360, the 'family fun factor' of a Wii, the um.... slimness of a mac?, but not everything in one package. I'm really glad I got an Xbox 360. With that money I could have bought a cell phone and been remorseful for the rest of the year. The Xbox 360 is the best 1000 dollar investment I've made my entire life. I'm happy with it, and so should anyone who dares touch it's controllers.
****
Hey, it's over, you can resume reading now.
But you actually think I'm going to write summore? Ok fine, I'll make this the longest post ever written on this blog. Ever. There's no way of making sure, so I'll just write till my fingers and brains get sore.
Ok, first thing's first, this blog title, which movie did it come from. No one's going to attempt an answer because:
1)the prize is, once again, a box of air(box not included)
2)some people usually don't want to be known when reading this blog, something about me being embarassing to read about(what's that about?)
Hey. Time for a one way conversation.
You guys remember when my jokes were all laugh out loud? I don't.
Is college really that silly? I mean is education really that structured? It feels as though the system is manufacturing doctors, engineers, lawyers, on a conveyor belt. That sinking feeling? yes, it's the same as planning to go for Lamb of God's last show in Indonesia, seeing that that's the closest they're ever going to come to Malaysia(stupid government, you think Tuhan Punya Kambing is Satanic??)
Enough of one way conversations.
Since I brought up the government, I might as well put them to the test.
Here's the test.
Just think about this. There are, possibly a million Malaysian blogs. Ok, maybe 500 000. Ok maybe 250 000. That's a safe number. 250 000 Malaysian blogs. That should be about right, right? Never mind. 250 000 Malaysian blogs.
Now, I don't think the government can monitor ALL of them, right?
And my blog has a 2000 views/ 6 months popularity.
so it's not famous AT ALL.
so..
um..
najib sucks balls
...
wow. After four hours, there's no ISA knocking on my door. Maybe my statement was too vague.
Enough about that.
remember that Gears of War video with the epic song.
Remember? I can't forget. In fact, I tracked down that song, downloaded it and I can't stop listening to it. It's so sad. muehhhh..
I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
How sad canya get?
Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and everyone, you're hard enough
You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches for you tonight
There, U2 IS sadder. How d'you top that? I don't know.
James Blunt. Damn, there's always someone sadder than the next.
I'm in dire need for some Lamb Of God. But it just sounds awful! I finally understand. I mean, it's great though, the best metal I've heard this year.
But it just doesn't make me feel better. Songs are supposed to do that. Stupid Gears of War song. Stupid U2. Stupid james Blunt. Why can't you be more metal. Stupid Lamb of God. Why can't you be sadder.
Enough! ! !
I'm back because I promised that this was going to be the longest post ever. But it just wasn't quite long enough. Didn't seem epic. Seemed passable.
Its prolly gonna end up messed up, but that's ok, because it's 3am, and for anyone who cares that's happy hour in hell, or so I've been told.
Funny. No wait, Scary. No matter how much I tell myself it's all in my head, I still can't help but peer over my shoulder and expect some horror movie scene to become real.
But then I wonder, what happens after that. How often do you see reports in the newspaper about mysterious murders involving horror-struck faces and whatnot. I think it's all stupid shite.
And I can trace my fear of the supernatural back to my childhood days. I remember one of my primary school teachers telling us not to be afraid of bad people and bad intentions. She said the only one to fear was God. That put the fear of God in my heart for the next 10 years. Until of coarse, something snapped in 2008 and I decided being told what was what just didn't cut it. I mean, if what was what all along then everyone would see eye to eye. And since no one wants to see eye to eye, there's either something else out there, or nothing at all, in which case it's all all useless. Either way, I don't think giving up or giving in is my kinda thing. Not in this case. Not when all I need to do is sit behind a desk and think of fancy words to chuck into the cyber sea. Nope, not when it's THAT easy.
I'm about to embark on the biggest and silliest quest ever. Wish me the best of random chance. If this goes as planned, I'm going to have to rethink my future, both immediate and long term. Plus, I'm going to have to get ready for hell. If it fails, then I'm going to live the most comfortable life ever. Stupid, you bet your ass!
I WANT to study in JB. My dogs are here. My air conditioning is here. My drums are here. My PC is here. My Xbox 360 is here. My limitless flow of supplies are here. Everything I want is here. Sunway College JB isn't too far away either.
But I NEED to study in KL. Not because it's KL and everything is better there. Like I said, it's not going to be cool, or easy. First off, money is going to be limited. I'm going to have to leave my dogs behind. I've to stop eating so much. Stop everything, and concentrate on not running out of money. No price is too high for the privalege of owning one's self. I hate Nietzsche for saying that. But he's right. I'm sick of having the choice of not studying. And the courses in Sunway JB kinda suck. I mean, it's so factory like. Bleargh. Not that KL is any different. There's just going to be more factories with better employers. I think that's as close a metaphor as I can come up with.
It all depends on my dad. He's the one who's responsible for paying the bills and making sure I'm not dead. The big issue is trust. I'm obviously more evil than I look. Ok, not evil, just, um, not righteous? Nah. I'm just bad at managing things. Studies, money, friends, parties, anything. I need things planned for me, so I can execute it, IF I feel like it. Blah blah blah.
Bottomline. Bullshit. I'm going to end up going to Sunway JB anyway.
Is this long enough?
No?
Ok.
How bout now?
Sure, fine.
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