I want to change the times, disintegrate the lines

I really do want to change the times. And disintegrate the lines.
Like, make today fast forward to the 3rd of September.
Because I can't stand the guilt of everything in between.
Because 3rd September is the day, I temporarily shut down my blog, computer and drum kit.
I was suppose to end everything on the 3rd of August, but, well, I'm only human.

Now that it's all official, I hereby proclaim 3rd September, Incarceration Day.
From that day, till the last day of SPM, I shall be in total lockdown.
The only pieces of technology left for me to distract myself with shall be my handphone (without credit) and my television.

And maybe I'll sneak my practice pad and the last two Dark Tower books. Hehe..
But THATS ALL.
I KNOW that the pc is my main distraction.
That month without my PC was hell for the inner teen in me, but I was more productive than ever.
I should put myself on total lockdown right now.
But since merdeka is next week with a four day long holiday, I can't risk it.
Because if I did put myself on lockdown and there was a short holiday, I KNOW I would betray myself.
So.
That's just it.
I'll continue posting as usual.
Even though my other 2 blogs are dead.
Until SPM is over.

In other news, I think I found 3 potential ambitions.
Nuclear Physics.
UN Counter Terrorism Negotiator
Slave.

I like the second one best.

Anyway it goes,
I want to learn psychiatry at some point in my life.